Korea?

I learned about eating disorders in my child development class today. I didn't really think that much of it at the time, but after awhile I started noticing that my friend kept trying to catch my eye. So I turn and look in her direction and I mouthed 'what' to her. And she just rolls her eyes and turns away. I found it weird at the time, but afterwords she confronted me about my 'disordered eating' and how I'm losing weight. All I really said was that I need to lose weight. I don't think anyone could come back with a truly honest comeback for that one. And of course, she couldn't. She just talked about how I skip meals and such and I just said it was because I'd eaten a lot the meal before. I just came up with an excuse for everything she said. It was kind of a close call. I don't really want her monitoring every thing I eat at every meal. In all honestly, I actually avoid eating with this girl because she always comments on what I'm eating. And I don't really like her that much. She lives fairly far away from me next year and I think I'm just going to avoid her. She's super negative all the time and kind of depressing to be around. Plus she goes out three or four times a week which really isn't much of a good influence for me when I'm trying to cut back on alcohol.

Haven't lost anymore weight. I'm still stuck at 158. I been eating way too much lately. I'm trying to use clothes as inspiration but it's not working. I might just go for a really long run to burn off some of the calories I ate today.

Some exciting news- I got a call from a department in the government asking me if I wanted to schedule a job interview for a summer job with them. I couldn't be more excited! They pay really well and it's a 9-5 job, so I'd have weekends and nights off to be with my friends. It's perfect!

Also, I've been thinking more and more about going to teach English in a different country. Right now I'm kind of stuck on Korea. I can't get the thought out of my head. But if I did decide to go, I wouldn't go until I'm done my degree, which isn't for two more years. I just can't stop thinking about it. I keep looking at blogs by people who are in Korea or have been in Korea teaching english. Some of them are so good, I'm going to keep up on reading them. I'm just worried about not speaking Korean/not knowing anyone who lives in the country. I'm sure you'd meet other people through orientation, but I wonder if they'd be in the same city as you. Hmm. Anyway, its just something that's been on my mind lately.

I've got a few goals for April. The first being blogging more often such as I've done 9(?) blogs this month. It's pathetic, I've got way more time on my hands than that. Plus, I find blogging almost therapeutic. I get all of my feelings out and I can talk about anything I want and whoever I want. It's works out well. So I'm hoping to blog either everyday or once every two or three days.
My second goal is to lose 10 pounds. I want to be 148 by May 1st.

Anyway, that's about it. Take care everyone!
Callie
xx

Photoshoot

I read an article today about how losing weight is 70% diet and 30% exercise. Being someone who exercises frequently, I found this kind of disheartening. I do try my best to always eat healthy, but it is so hard at times. Well, I guess now I'll just have to try harder. In a way it makes sense. When I eat 500-800 calories I lose weight pretty quickly, whereas if I eat 1500 and go for a long run I don't really lose weight that quickly. I guess I should stop running and quit eating. Although I don't think I could ever give up running, I like it too much!

Not much has changed since yesterday. I skipped my classes today to work at a photoshoot. It wasn't anything big, it was just a photographer who has a few models he always shoots. One of them was my good friend who recommended me as a makeup artist. I was so flattered! Anyway, I had a blast working there and I got paid $20 a model. Pretty decent pay when all I'm doing is practicing and gaining experience. Plus it only took me about 30 minutes for each model, and they provided makeup that was given to them by maybelline. The only main problem is that I hate maybelline mascara. Like absolutely despise it. I think out of all their mascaras there's only two I like and neither of them were provided since they are not new mascaras. So I was stuck with great lash mascara and some even shittier kind which, honestly, I didn't even know was possible. I always thought great lash was the absolute worst, but apparently I'm wrong. It was awful. I didn't even know what to do, the stuff clumped so bad! In the end, it was okay. He didn't do any close up shots, so it just made their eyelashes look really thick. I did the best I could with it really. But the rest was so great!

I haven't eaten all day because I was too nervous this morning and after seeing all the models I never want to eat again. Ugh, two of them were so skinny you could see almost all of their ribs. I'm so incredibly jealous.

Apparently Eva Longoria is a double zero. She's so gorgeous and so tiny.



No change in my weight. Not necessarily bad, I was just hoping to lose at least a pound today since I'm fasting. So disappointing.

Good luck everyone!
Callie
xx