It's 2010...

It's weird writing 2010. I always get that feeling the first few days of a new year, but this year it seems even weirder. I don't go back to school for another week so I'm just lazing around home doing absolutely nothing at all. I'm getting so sick of being home. I just want to be back in my tiny room in residence. I even want to get back to classes. I'm just so bored of being home and having my parents tell me what to do. I'm almost 20, and for the majority of the year no one tells me what to do or where I can go. It's so frustrating. I'm an adult, I'm sick of being treated like a child.

I've never felt more like my blog title than I do today. I named my blog "Skinny on the Inside" because I feel like there's this thin person hiding inside me. Today I feel like I'm a thin person covered in an unremovable fat suit. I know that I did this to myself, and there's a reason why I've fat, but I just feel like there's this skinny person inside me trying to get free. I'm so sick of being fat. I want to be thin and wear beautiful clothes and not worry about how I look. Maybe I'm feeling trapped at home with all the rules and it's causing me to feel a little claustrophobic, but I just wish I could magically become this thin, beautiful person.

I haven't eaten yet today, but I know I'll have to eat some of my mandatory family dinner. I cannot wait to get out of this place and be back by myself. Well, not quite by myself - I live with 250 other people -I just want to have my own rules and eat the way I want.

Good luck everyone. I hope your day is going better than mine.
Callie