Started ABC!

It's strange that I haven't posted in awhile. I started the ABC on Monday and I successfully ate only 470 calories and yesterday I ate 450 calories and then had a martini. Not exactly under 500 calories, but it's close. I guess you could say that it's going well, but I think I'm going to stop. I meant to post the past few days, but I've been feeling really down lately. I was so excited to get back to school and now I just want to go home. Maybe when the workload picks up I'll feel differently, but I just feel like I want to leave. I'm so sick of shitty showers and annoying people. Seriously, I just wish everyone around me would grow up and get over the need to play load obnoxious music at 2pm on a Monday. It's completely unnecessary. I think I need to move. My point is that I haven't really been feeling like myself lately, and I think I'm going to concentrate on other things instead of ABC.

My RA is also being a total douche bag. She put this alcohol abuse themed thing on my floor's bulletin board with "This floor is rated 18A for alcohol abuse" in huge red letters. First off, it's the stupidest thing ever to write. I'm assuming the 18A part has to do with movie ratings, so apparently this means that the alcohol abuse on my floor is rated 18A? I don't even know. Then she puts up all these facts about alcohol abuse and alcoholism with these pictures and ads about drinking. First off, no one on my floor abuses alcohol and no one is an alcoholic (that I'm aware of). Yeah, my floor usually will get together on friday and saturday nights and have a few drinks, and yeah someone is always drunk. But it's not out of control. My RA is just using the bulletin board in a passive-aggressive way to say, "I think you're all alcoholics." My RA is super christian (not that there's anything wrong with that). She doesn't drink, she's engaged to some guy but has never slept with him, actually there's rumours that she's never kissed him. She's super judgemental and compared to her, my floor is a bunch of crazy, alcohol abusing, promiscuous people. I'm defending my floor on this one, because she's being a huge bitch. There's five people on my floor that are extremely immature, but I'm still friends with two of them. I do get really frustrated when it's 3am and they're out screaming in the hall, but I'm not going to go as far as putting up a judgmental sign. The thing was even put up with a staple gun, so it's got those huge staples that you can't pull out. My plan is just to get drunk and rip the thing down. Actually I might just go out at 5am and rip it down while I'm sober, but then she'd have a huge floor meeting about why my floor is a bunch of mean disrespectful people. I'm just so offended by that stupid sign. Ugh.

Okay back to what I was talking about earlier. I think I'm going to stop ABC because I'm feeling depressed. Not depressed enough to see a doctor, but I just don't want to have another thing on top of this. Besides, I hardly eat anything anymore. I just don't have the desire to eat. So instead of concentrating on ABC, I'm going to concentrate on getting lots of exercise. Exercise should make me happier. As soon as I start feeling more like myself, I'm going to try the ABC diet again and hopefully get further than two days!

Anyway, It's 1pm and I haven't gotten dressed or done anything other than write this post. I've got a class at 2pm so I'm going to get ready for that.

Good luck everyone!
Callie