Home, For Now

Hi everyone,

I'm feeling a million times better than my last post. I sleep about 10 hours a night now instead of 14 which is fantastic. I couldn't keep up with my schoolwork when I was sleeping so much, so sleeping less is a huge relief. And I've lost another 4lbs. I'm so close to weighing one-fifty-something instead of one-sixty-something. I really thought I wouldn't be here until summer since i was stuck at 168 for weeks and weeks. Actually more like months. It was terrible. My main goal is to not gain any of this weight back before summer. This may sound stupid, but I truely believe that the thinner I am the more likely I am to get a decent job this summer. So my main goal is to lose another 10lbs by May 1st. I think it's completely achievable. I've got a month and half, so that's not even 2lbs a week. I can do this.

I came home this weekend to get away from noisy residence life so I could sleep better. So far it's not too bad. Usually I fight with my mom every 5 minutes, but she's so worried about me and so fixated on how much weight I've lost that she's been pretty good. My mom is probably the tiniest skinniest mother I know. She's 5 foot 2 and 105lbs. She's like walking thinspiration, except she's my mom so I actually end up getting super upset and then stuffing my face with food. I would love to be the same size as my mom. I heard once that for every inch in height you should should weigh 3lbs more. So because I'm 4 inches taller than my mom, I should weigh 12lbs more, which is 117lbs. Ugh that is my dream weight. I spent like 2 hours last night on american apparel's website looking at all of their spandex-y wonderful clothes on skinny people. I saw this beautiful tight fitting dress that I want, but of course I'm not skinny enough. Maybe the end of the summer if all goes well. I think I'm going to order a 3-pack of t-shirts off their website tomorrow. Their just so comfy and well-fitting and the ones I bought last September are more like pajama shirts now because they're so loose. And I also want to buy a new flat iron. I can't decide between the Chi straightener and the Solia one. I wish someone would do a comparison on youtube or something. Sorry, I've been in a spending money mood for a few days with the birthday money I got last week. I just can't decide what to spend it on.

That's all for now, I hope everyone is doing well!
Callie