40 Pounds Later

Right before writing this I was editing my stats to input my current weight, and I realized exactly a year ago I was 40 pounds of fat heavier. It kind of came as a shock. I lost most of the weight in the past four months but it was such a slow process and so much hard work. I have 32lbs more to lose, but I've been so dedicated lately that I feel almost unstoppable. I just keep repeating I can do this, I can do this over and over again in my head. I will get there. I have to get there.

And I apologize for not posting for over three weeks. I was swamped with term papers and then exams and I just didn't want to get distracted from studying. My exams went pretty well. My first four went amazingly well. I'm expecting good marks in all of those classes, but my exam this morning was terrible. Its a hard course but I spent days studying for it to the point where I had textbook answers memorized. I couldn't have been more prepared. But once I started the exam I felt like I had studied for the wrong course. The prof for this course is actually really reasonable. She (usually) writes super fair exams that are really clear and I do really well on them. But this exam felt like a stranger had written the exam. For the entire first hour I wrote almost nothing. I would do a question, erase it, do the question again, erase it, move on to the next question, repeat. Then after about an hour I started to feel really nauseous. I thought I was going to throw up in the exam room so I asked for the key to the bathroom (because they have these super strict bathroom rules during exams). I didn't realize my prof had to wait by the exam room door to let me back in because after I had spent 15 minutes trying to pull myself together and trying not to throw up, I went back into the exam room and got asked so many questions by my prof. First she thought I had somehow talked to someone in the hall and then she started telling me I looked like I was going to faint. It was so embarrassing. I just told her I thought I had the flu, but really I made myself sick from freaking out about the exam. How crazy is that? I was literally so nervous I made myself physically sick. Anyway, I eventually calmed down and finished the exam.

So after potentially failing that exam, I had to pack up ALL of my stuff so I could move out. I spent four hours packing and then an hour of packing the car with my mom. It was so tedious, but I got a lot of exercise. Then I had to move all my stuff from the car to my room at home and I'm still unpacking. I hate moving. Like absolutely despise it. I didn't even want to move, I miss res so much already. Plus I've got about a million long-distance friendships to keep up on now. Not that it's a bad thing, its just that most of my friends live far away from me so I miss them a lot during the summers. Oh well, I'll get over it. It's only four months.

Other than exams and moving back home, the only other new news is that I got the government job I was talking about in my last post. They interviewed 16 people for one position and I got it! I could not be more ecstatic!

That's all for now, I'm so exhausted. I hope things are going well for everyone!
Callie
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