Long Time, No Post

It seems like everytime I post I'm writing about how I haven't written in awhile. I have this tendency of not posting, and it's not that I'm losing motivation or anything, I just really suck at finding free time to post. I'm doing well. I'm still a cow, but I've lost 12lbs all together now (4lbs in the past week!). And my Birthday is coming up! I'm kind of apprehensive about it because I'm not sure what I'm going to do for my birthday. It's on a tuesday so my choices are pretty limited. I know most of my friends will suggest going out for drinks or dinner or dinner and drinks but that's all just calories and really I just want to go downtown and have fun. Maybe i'll just do drinks or something and make sure I don't eat more than 500 calories before I go out. Ugh I don't know. It's all calories and more calories to me. And I'm turning 20 and I'm kind of wishing I wasn't. I just feel like your 20's is when you're a 'real' adult and have lots of responsibilities and you get married and you have kids... It's overwhelming. I am not ready to be 20. I'm trying to look at it in a good way, like I'm going to be an adult so i need to get my life in gear and start eating well and lose all this fat, but it's hard.

On the bright side my parents bought me a blackberry for my birthday. I don't have it just yet, but I'm going to pick it out this afternoon. I think I'm going to get the blackberry pearl because it's smaller and prettier than the other blackberries I've seen. I'm so happy I'm finally getting one!

Another great thing, I went shopping last night for a new pair of jeans and I'm one size smaller! Woot! So I'm down from a size 12 to a size 10. Still wishing I was a size 2 but I'd rather be a 10 than a 12. Anyway I'm going to get back to the paper Im writing. It's been a terrible week for schoolwork because the olympics are on so I have a ton of stuff to catch up on now.

Good luck everyone!
Callie