Almost a Quitter

I know its been awhile since I last posted. Honestly, this past month I've been telling myself that I quit. I was completely ready to stop posting and try to eat like "normal" people. But I can never eat like a normal person. I am physically (well, maybe mentally) unable to stop eating. I can't just have a bite or a handful, I have to eat it all. Sometimes it gets so out of control that I'm eating and I feel sick and the food doesn't even taste good anymore and I"M STILL EATING. It is the most frustrating thing in the world, but I can't make myself stop. Anyway, I've been so messed up this past month. I binged for days at a time and then I felt so sick and bloated and terrible. And then I came back here and read some of your guys posts. You are all such an inspiration to me. I truly feel 1000 times more motivated to stay on track and lose the rest of the fat thats still clinging to by body. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

Other than my month long binge, the only other news I have is that I gained six fucking pounds. Not exactly shocking under the circumstances, but still depressing, I'm hoping that if I put in a good two hours at the gym every night this week, I may be able to lose the majority of it.

Also, I tried the cabbage soup diet the beginning of last month. It is possibly the worst diet I have ever tried. I lost five pounds, which is great, but I had the biggest sweet tooth by the time I finished the diet. There's this one day where you eat only bananas and milk (and cabbage soup, of course) and its supposed to get rid of your sweet cravings. That was definitely not the case with me. It basically led to the biggest binge of my life. Has anyone else tried the cabbage soup diet?

I'd write more, but I want to get to the gym so I have at least two hours there before it closes. I hope you're all doing well! I'll have to catch up on your blogs!
Callie xx

I Need A Gym Pass

I haven't lost any weight yet. It's so depressing so I'm going out tonight and getting a gym pass. I automatically have one when I'm at school because my tuition covers the cost, and the past 5 years I've had one at a gym close to my house because I worked at the pool in the the facility. But now I'm gym pass less. And I miss it. So I probably have to spend every dollar in my bank account for it, but it's worth it even though I'm poor.

Also, I'm starting the cabbage soup diet tomorrow. I got the recipe/diet here: http://www.cabbage-soup-diet.com/index.php
They claim you can eat as much as you want, and emphasize stuffing yourself, but i'll probably refrain from that. I just don't like the feeling of being full and bloated.

And my new job is so great! It's just typical office job stuff but I really, really like it there. Sorry this is such a quick post but I just want to get my gym pass! I'm leaving asap!

Callie xx